I need a wing to fly away over the universe
I need a light to enlighten everything
I need a nose to inhale the O2 and CO2
I need the eyes that can see through you
I need the ears that can listen and keep the truth
I need a mouth that can speak only true
I need the hand that when touch can cure
I need legs that lead me to the right destination
I need skin that cover my every skeletons
I need a brain that can help everything function as it suppose
I need what it takes to be a human….^^
Our country will celebrate the 53rd independent day that was started from 31st August 1957. A lot of changes happened in our country and changes of the few Prime Ministers, to the development, the buildings and all sort of things that we cannot even thought 53 years ago. Of course I will never think of it since I had never even born yet that time. If we asked our dear grandparents what do they expected to see today, one of the for sure thing will be to see how free we can walk in our own country without being scared to be killed by enemy army. What we can see from the eyes of the youth today will definitely, independent would be a freedom to do anything we like without been any limit in it. This kinda thought happened cause we had never see the fears that encountered by the elderly before.
As for myself, Independent would definitely an ability for us to freely point out our thought and to live in our country the way we want it to be. I am sure everyone got their own opinion on independent themselves. For the older people, middle age people, youth and kids all got different ways of define the meaning of the country freedom. Likewise, I do not think everyone remember the country independent day if it is not advertise in the media and if you by surprise meet any of them on the road just ask how many years our country had been independent. I am sure some that concern might able to answer but if not never be surprised. Well I do not wanna bluff off to much. Just think for yourself what the meaning of freedom within yourself and country. For sure you will have your own thought of it. Just happy to wish everyone, Happy Independent day to all Malaysian…^^
Just a random post here. A few times I had surveyed for a “make it yourself” table for my laptop so it will be easier and comforter to be online. I had went to carefour, jusco and econsave. They got lots of it but the price is not worth it. Some of it was to expensive but the deco was not that interesting and some was too expensive with a nice deco. I had budget for around RM50 only for it and did not want to over the limit. So still search for a budget price one…hehe.
At last found a nice table with a budget price that was RM48.50. Not so big and need a lil space only. I brought it back home and start to screw it up all by myself. What happened was I need to postpone to build it since my screwdriver spoiled after a few screwing at the table. Need to wait for another day and bought 2 extra screwdriver. Here a few pictures of the making of the computer table.
- the box
- the components
near to complete...LOL
Since the day I had been involved with nursing, I had never thought that I might see everything that I had seen until today and how holy this career might be. The only thing I thought that time would be that the chances to get a job is better and easier and also the salary is not so bad. During my college period, I had seen some light cases of sick people, chronic accident people, dying people and etc. Today all the prospects had changed totally. The latest thing happened yesterday was after my patient had been several time shocked and sedated he was still awake , alert, rational and was able to ask me whether I had eat yet or not. But suddenly after I finished my shift he collapsed and coded. So nothing gonna be such a surprise for me if I seen such thing anymore.
Now my career prospects are within the critical care area that would most likely I will take care of critically ill patient. Sometimes I did wonder what might the patient think about when they see other people around them that was so sick, about their financial problem ( since medical expense is not that cheap ), their families and etc. I had counter several patient that was so sick enough but still worried on how the children wanna pay the hospital bills for them and did not want others worried about them. The first time I saw a patient died and the families grieving it surely made me feel wanna cry also but today it had been a common thing except certain prolong stay patient that we had been took care. That surely so touching when we see how the spouse put some hopes that their partner will recovered even though there is obvious enough that they will not recover from the illness.
Whenever we see critically ill patient, some of them might look good at the outside but they internally unwell. I had seen a lot of this type of patient when they come look so healthy without got any serious illness but when do some check up they are not. Whenever I think of it, I had always wondered how my life will end up. Is it gonna be so difficult or is it so easy? How my family will react? How will they feel when I am gone? How? How and How? As I encountered the grieving people each day I wonder how might I feel if I am in their shoes. Today maybe I will not react much as I saw all the grieving people but maybe I might react like them if I lost my love one too.
Each time I see some so ill patient and the low chance for recover patient, I had always hope that the family can let them go faster cause whenever they give hope to them the patient just like cannot go away peacefully. It is just so pity. We are the one who know their medical terminology so it is just sad enough to know that they wont recover ever again even the family denied it when they were told. I do believe that actually the patient is suffering inside the never awake body. The most difficult part would be when we did resuscitate the patient and they just go. When you see how anxious the family that waiting outside it will be so heart broken when the doctor announce that their love one had gone.
Tomorrow will going to be a year since I officially get my nursing certificate. All I hope will be that I will never leave this career as it is, will be more grateful with how I live in this world, take care of my health, do good to others, learn from other people suffering and can encourage people to never give up even they know they might gone soon cause God is always watch us. To all my colleague and my ex-college friends always do good deed to others cause God always gonna pay for our kindness because that is why we are born to be nurses. Cheers….^__^
Our biological clock will automatically know when is the sleeping time. As if it know when is day and night time. Lately my biological clock had been disturbed due to prolong night duty. Night duty is a peak hour of work that I just cannot refuse for my job cause we always need to be at alert state since this involve with human life. For night duty the hours begin at 9 pm until 7 am. It will be a total of 10 hours of duty. Working during this sleeping hours sure can made some people feel sleepy whenever it reach the 2nd and 3rd night duty. Lack of sleep or inability of their body to adjust to the timing always cause this problem. As for me it is not a major problem since I am always a late night sleeper ever since my school years until now. I will sometimes prefer to work for night duty more than morning duty that I will feel much more sleepy.
Recently we had been assigned for 4 night duties compare to before that was only 2 night duty straight. This cause of action happened since they increase the night duty staff and the lack of staffing lately. Since they start up back with 4 night duties back, I had always been in the 4 night duty roster which I always feel happy about it….hehe…I had done a few times of straight 4 night duty and now it started to show some effect of it.
One of it that I just started to notice recently was :- Continue reading
My family just move from our old house 2 months ago but I did not have time to take out all the items that I had kept in the box (lazy mode…huhuhu). Nowadays, most of my times I did spent in KL rather than my parents house. All due to pack working hours.The box did l ied near the bedside for 2 months without I had any effort to arrange the items inside of it. Last Friday I did not have much work to do and cannot sleep after a few hours been spent in front of the laptop downloading the Crisis core : final fantasy VII games (freaking nice game with a cool graphic) from the internet and searching for some software. My sister did not keep back my comic to the box after she did read it and that was why I did open the box. So I opened up the box…… Continue reading